On New Year's Eve, I made a wish to immerse myself forever in the sensations that I experienced while taking tranquilizers. I wanted to fall into a sweet sleep and not face reality anymore. In an effort to forget myself, I was trapped in a depressive hedonia, which Mark Fisher described in "Capitalist Realism" as an inability to do anything other than the search for pleasure. In this series, I depict different types of pleasures and the states associated with them. I create still lifes and environments from objects and substances that are associated with something pleasant and seductive, and sometimes creepy. The doll appears to be my alter-ego, living a New Year's experiment. ORCID: https://orcid.org/0009-0009-1269-7603 The contents of this archive may be: – copied – shared – archived – redistributed – preserved in other systems for non-commercial and preservation purposes. Nika Sandler's other archives are available here: https://archive.org/details/nika-sandler https://archive.org/details/@nika_sandler837 https://osf.io/wgy8b/ The World of Hedonia https://doi.org/10.17605/OSF.IO/Y4MSD https://zenodo.org/search?q=metadata.creators.person_or_org.name%3A%22Sandler%2C%20Nika%22&l=list&p=1&s=10&sort=bestmatch https://zenodo.org/communities/nika-sandler/ https://doi.org/10.5281/zenodo.15670189 https://github.com/nika-sandler https://github.com/nika-sandler/the-world-of-hedonia https://doi.org/10.6084/m9.figshare.31991178 https://conifer.rhizome.org/nika-sandler https://conifer.rhizome.org/nika-sandler/the-world-of-hedonia https://www.memory-of-mankind.com/